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(Fic) And All My Secrets Laid Bare, Chapter 1

10th February 2008 (14:09)
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You know, I've often thought that the world needs more fic about Willow having sex with a giant snake. Haven't we all? So here's my attempt to remedy this sad deficiency. Mind you, it's not all about that: I've got character development and moral dilemmas and philosophy and a scene where Tara meets Kennedy, and lots of angst. Plus some humour. And, of course, the hot herpetophilia.

This story takes place after the end of 'Chosen' and before 'The Long Way Home'. You don't have to have read the comics to understand it: all you need to know is that Willow is engaging in advanced magical research so she can become more powerful... to help people, of course. It's also a sequel to my earlier fic 'Legally Dead', but again if you haven't read that I've included a 'Previously...' to give you the important details.


Rating: 18 (NC-17) It's not all sex, but the sex is definitely there.
Pairing: Willow/OC with references to some of her past relationships.
Wordcount: Three chapters in total. Chapter One 1,582; Chapter Two 1,564; Chapter Three 1,565
Warnings: Willow's having sex with a giant snake demon. Where do I start? Sex, obviously. It's a female giant snake demon, so femslash. Sexual congress with a demon is the thing witches were always being accused of in history, so I suppose I ought to warn for witchcraft. And sex with a giant snake probably counts as bestiality, too. And if you think about a snake wrapping itself around someone, trapping her in its coils - there's a definite bondage and domination subtext there which is really unavoidable. And, the whole giant snake thing is totally Freudian anyway. Right then. Warnings: sex, femslash, witchcraft, bestiality, D/s and bondage. Did I miss anything?

Canon note (ETA): this story was written before we were told the name 'Saga Vasuki' for the snake goddess Willow meets here, so I called her 'Nehushtan' in this fic. To resolve the discrepancy, just assume that as a goddess, she's known by many different names. :-)


Anything will give up its secrets if you love it enough - George Washington Carver





Previously on 'Buffy the Vampire Slayer':
Willow has travelled to the realm of the serpent goddess Nehushtan, Mistress of Life and Death, to learn the deepest secrets of healing magic from her. She already knows that Nehushtan will only surrender her secrets to her lovers, and she thinks she's prepared for that: but is she ready to face the tests that the goddess will impose upon her?

Also, Kennedy's dead. Only temporarily, it's a mystical thing, and Kennedy actually volunteered for it. Nehushtan is a jealous goddess, and wouldn't be pleased if Willow tried approaching her when she already had a lover back on Earth. Unfortunately, it kind of slipped Willow's mind to explain to Kennedy exactly what she was planning to do with Nehushtan; she thought Kennedy would only be upset, and why hurt her with the full truth? 

Old habits die hard...

And All My Secrets Laid Bare

Willow kneels on the grass, her head bowed. She is naked, as the ritual demands; and the constant gentle rain feels oddly warm on her bare skin. She completes speaking her request, and waits in nervous anticipation.

"Look at me."

She raises her eyes, and gasps in terror and delight as Nehushtan takes form before her. The goddess has a woman's face, eerily beautiful despite its green hue, its blackened lips that barely hide sharp white teeth and flickering tongue. Her eyes glow white, with no pupil or iris. Her hair, long and fine, is pure silver; it stretches away from her head, ruffled by a breeze that touches nothing else, that Willow herself cannot feel.

"Am I beautiful, mortal? Do you desire me?"

Yes says the voice inside Willow's head, but she says nothing, casting her eyes down Nehushtan's womanly torso - yesyesyesyes - seeing where it becomes scaly and monstrous, the tail of a vast serpent, coiling and twisting about itself. She swallows, looks back into Nehushtan's inhuman eyes.

"Y-you're a goddess. Whatever form you choose would look good to me, if... if you wanted it to."

Silvery laughter greets her remark. "A wise answer, child. But what of this form, then? Does it please you? Does it fill you with the warmth of mortal passion? Would you share that with me?"

Gulp. Willow has read the books, knows what to expect, but this is sudden urgent reality and she fights the urge to panic. What is the correct reply? If she gets this wrong now, she'll never return home... although - a rebellious thought intrudes - it would probably be a really fun way to die. No. Not fun. Not fun at all. Think, Rosenberg. Get it right. She masters herself, and her voice comes back low and determined.

"I would share with you, and you with me. A mingling, an exchange, and then we go our separate ways wiser for the experience. I would do this with you, my lady Nehushtan."

A sudden hiss, that makes Willow start back in fear, and Nehushtan's eyes suddenly flame yellow. But then the colour bleaches out of them once more, and a cruel smile curves around the goddess's lips.

"Well then. You would learn my secrets? You will pay the price? Well then. Open yourself to me, child."

"OK, um... what do you want to know?" But Nehushtan's body is coiling itself lasciviously, rubbing its folds one against the other, and in shock Willow understands. "Oh. Whoa. That's just... yuk. You mean literally? With the... uh.. opening.. Umm..."

"Of course I do. You have come for my secrets, have you not? I share them only with my lovers."

Willow feels the blush spreading down from her face; she stammers, flustered more than ever. "B-but - uh, th-that's not how mortals d-do it, we don't just, um, d-dive in there like that, not if we want to b-be lovers. We take it slow, get to know each other, we don't just..."

"But you do. None of my past lovers hesitated like this; they were eager for my touch, they burned for it. Do you find me less desirable than they did?"

"Uh, no, my lady." Willow grimaces. She feels acutely uncomfortable, but she leans back, lying down on the wet grass, wriggling her shoulders to find a spot to lie easy. Spreads her arms akimbo, and slowly, reluctantly opens her legs. Keeping her knees locked, her toes pointed, focussing on her own physical actions, trying not to think about what was sure to come.

Failing miserably. 

As the goddess's unearthly face watches her dispassionately, Willow feels exposed and vulnerable. If this is Nehushtan's idea of experiencing human love, she has an awful lot to learn... There is no sharing here. She is spread out like a laboratory specimen, completely helpless before Nehushtan's power, and she--

Oh. The sudden flush of warmth, the rapid pounding of her heart takes Willow completely by surprise. Her nipples grow taut under the gentle touch of the soft rain. What...?

"We share secrets, child. This is the first lesson." And now Nehushtan is moving, flowing sinuously over the ground. Her tail coils around Willow, wrapping itself firmly around her legs, her arms. She feels herself lifted up as the goddess's body encircles her waist. The scales feel rough, but not unpleasant, and Nehushtan is not cold and clammy as Willow had feared; she is warm. Warm and soft and sensuous, and a slow steady pulsing of lust begins to ripple up through Willow's body. Her breathing quickens as she looks into Nehushtan's face, now close to her own. The goddess puts out a hand, cups the side of Willow's face, lifts her chin to look deep into her eyes. Judging, measuring? The blank white eyes offer no clues; and then Nehushtan moves aside with inhuman grace. Willow can look down at her spreadeagled body, held fast in the countless scaly, muscular coils, looping around her wrists and ankles and thighs and stomach. There seems no end to the goddess's immensity... and then suddenly there is.

The tip of Nehushtan's tail rears up scorpion-like between Willow's legs. She bites back a gasp, feels Nehushtan's coils flow around her, tightening their grip. The tail is huge. It sways back and forth like a cobra's head. Its scales glisten damply in the warm rain. Willow's eyes are wide and round; she can't look away. Fear and terror and anticipation and arousal knot her stomach and make her blood race. As the goddess's tail begins ever so slowly to dip down towards her exposed crotch, held open like a sacrificial offering, Willow can feel herself start to hyperventilate. She struggles desperately to control herself, knowing that her life hangs in the balance. If she angers Nehushtan now... 

It's closer still. Willow can't face it. She screws her eyes closed, clenches her fists so hard her fingernails bruise her palms. She desperately orders her body to relax, telling it that tensing up is exactly the wrong thing to do right now; but her body isn't listening. She can hear herself whimpering softly.

Then the tail-tip touches her, and a shock like electricity convulses her body. Her eyes fly open again as the nature of the touch registers. It's gentle, and for all the vast bulk of Nehushtan's body her tail moves with delicacy and dexterity. It circles around and down, caressing Willow intimately, and she feels herself relax into the touch--

Just as Nehushtan withdraws her tail again slightly, straightens it out, and aims it. Vast muscular coils tense and bunch behind it, ready to drive it home...

"Eep."

When it comes it's slow at first, just the barest fraction of the serpent goddess's full length, and yet Willow feels herself stretching, right on the blurry line between pain and pleasure. She's gasping, panting for breath, fists knotted, full. Tries desperately to weave a pleasant fantasy in her head to distract her, but the filmy wisps are torn to shreds by the far too immediate present.

Then it stops, and Willow blinks her eyes to see the goddess regarding her curiously, head tilted to one side. Nehushtan says nothing; but suddenly the tail is withdrawn, leaving a surprising void at Willow's centre. And Nehushtan is wriggling sinuously around, with a dexterity no human could match, settling herself between the witch's legs and looking up at her over the top of her breasts and tummy with pale, pupilless eyes.

Then she bends forward, and Willow feels the first faint flickering pressure of her tongue, and sighs in pleasure that's more than half mixed with relief. She's already seriously aroused, and the goddess is quickly driving her higher and higher, her tongue moving with inhuman speed, and there's something about it that Willow can't quite place, but it feels different and exciting and oh so good and it's driving her mad that she can't explain it but it's getting hard to think straight now and just as the world shatters into shards of colour it hits her:

Oh! Snake! Forked tongue!

As things swim slowly back into focus, Willow takes a deep, shaky breath and mentally catalogues her body parts. Still all attached, and definitely working properly. She feels a big goofy grin creeping across her face as she smiles her thanks at the green-skinned goddess.

Nehushtan doesn't return the smile.

She looks at Willow a long time in silence, as if searching for something in her expression. Then nods to herself, and speaks at last.

"You have experienced pleasure? You have experienced ecstasy at my hands?"

Not just her hands, Willow thinks, but she just nods and said "Yes. Thank you."

"I do not wish for your thanks. Here there are only rules, and an exchange. For pleasure, a secret. I have given of myself unto you, and now you must share yourself with me. What do you have to tell me, mortal?"

"Huh? I - er - I thought the deal was you told me a secret, in, um, in return for, y'know, sex? You want to know my secrets too?" Her voice rises to a squeak on the last syllables. And now Nehushtan does smile, her tongue flickering out around her lips.

"Of course. There is always wisdom to be gained from what people choose not to reveal. In the things we do not tell." The goddess leans forward, touches a cool hand to Willow's forehead.

"In the things we hide."



On to Chapter Two.

Comments

Posted by: spikeNdru (spikendru)
Posted at: 12th February 2008 23:13 (UTC)

Oh, my! Willow and the Snakie Goddess is even more intriguing than the Tentacle!Sex fics that were making the rounds awhile ago!

There is always wisdom to be gained from what people choose not to reveal. In the things we do not tell."

Meep!

Oh! Snake! Forked tongue!

Bwahaha!

Posted by: StephenT (stormwreath)
Posted at: 12th February 2008 23:42 (UTC)

Willow and the Snakie Goddess is even more intriguing than the Tentacle!Sex fics that were making the rounds awhile ago!

Part of the blame for this fic has to go to beer_good_foamy for making an icon of Willow and the snake demon with text of the goddess saying "Spread what, exactly?"


And after Nehushtan's forked tongue, will Kennedy's pierced tongue seem like, um, an anticlimax? :-)

Posted by: Lily (lavastar)
Posted at: 2nd July 2009 02:10 (UTC)

Oh. Oh!

Oh, wow.

I feel...rather dirty and wrong for liking this, but I REALLY REALLY do. :P

It's sexy and mysterious and full of wrongnaughtybad!Willow and...it's just fascinating.

*scurries off to read the next chapter, briefly wondering why not many people commented*

Posted by: StephenT (stormwreath)
Posted at: 2nd July 2009 19:07 (UTC)

This probably is the kinkiest thing I've written - 'Netherlands to Nepal' was more broad comedy but this was actually written to be smutty... but it's also got all sorts of power issues and quasi-bondage and you name it. Which I'm not at all into on a personal level, but somehow it just seemed to fit this fic.


briefly wondering why not many people commented

It's femslash and most LJ readers are heterosexual women? It's Season 8 and most LJ readers hate the comics?
*shrug* :-(

Posted by: Lily (lavastar)
Posted at: 3rd July 2009 00:47 (UTC)

This probably is the kinkiest thing I've written - 'Netherlands to Nepal' was more broad comedy but this was actually written to be smutty... but it's also got all sorts of power issues and quasi-bondage and you name it. Which I'm not at all into on a personal level, but somehow it just seemed to fit this fic.

Oh, definitely. But...still similar. Ish.

Both very good, anyways.

It's femslash and most LJ readers are heterosexual women? It's Season 8 and most LJ readers hate the comics? *shrug* :-(

*grumbles about both of these*

The femslash I can - well, not understand, because femslash is the fucking shit - but sympathize with, maybe. Not the right word, but whatever. I get that some types of fic just aren't people's cuppa, and that femslash often gets ignored because either you (and I'm talking about straight women here) read fic to identify with the characters (so het) or to enjoy teh gay, because guys together are hot, or something (I don't really understand why slash is so popular - I mean, I adore slash, and cute gay boys, I just don't really get why...) - so femslash is left out in the cold. Which sucks and makes no sense, but whatever. You shouldn't force people into what they don't like.

But comics? I mean, I don't really take them as my canon, because they can be incredibly ridiculous at times (like that Dracula stuff? Hoo.) - but they're enjoyable. They're funny, they're touching, they get to the deep issues, they're suspenseful, maybe not the best drawn things in the world, but mostly fine - basically, it's Buffy, if you substitute "drawing" for "special effects". I guess I've never directly heard someone's opinion on why they don't like them, just - "I don't like them. Thoughts?

Posted by: StephenT (stormwreath)
Posted at: 3rd July 2009 18:39 (UTC)

read fic to identify with the characters (so het)

At least when I first started writing more explicit stuff, I think I steered clear of het so I wouldn't identify with it. Writing about a man getting it on with a woman seemed too personal, like the readers would all assume I was describing myself, and that felt weird. Femslash seemed a little safer, because it was one step removed from my personal identity. (Though obviously close enough that I could draw on my own experiences when writing.)

I think there's a difference between straightforward fiction and porn. I'd be surprised and a bit disappointed if anyone refused to read a story centred around, say, Willow and Tara going on an adventure and fighting demons or whatever, just because they were a gay couple. But if the story is explicit porn designed to get the reader hot, then I'm not surprised that the only people interested in reading about lesbian sex are, well, lesbians. And straight guys, of course.

I guess I've never directly heard someone's opinion on why they don't like them

I've heard plenty of people complaining about them. It gets frustrating after a while. I think some people couldn't understand the format, some people had a problem with the drawings not looking like the actors, some people didn't like the compressed nature of the format where you have 22 pages instead of 43 minutes. People complained that actors can convey things with tone of voice and gesture that comics panels can't. People complained that the comics were monthly instead of weekly.

Then there's the content. People complained that the characters were behaving differently to the way they did on the show. That Joss didn't explain details like where the money came from to pay for the castle. That things like Giant Dawn were unrealistic. That Buffy wasn't wearing fashionable clothes. That Joss kept the ending of 'Chosen', which some people didn't like. That Spike wasn't in it....

Posted by: Lily (lavastar)
Posted at: 3rd July 2009 19:07 (UTC)

It's funny - for some reason (probably because you're one of the only guys I know in fandom) I always kind of thought, "Oh, Stephen's like really unusual for being a straight guy writing about lesbians, hmm, that's really cool" - and then I realized, "Wait, he's just being a regular straight guy. Oh."

(Not that I *don't* think you're cool and unusual, of course...)

Yeah, I never really thought of it that way, with myself. I just write what I feel like writing, and so far I haven't had the balls to actually write the sexy parts, so it ends up not really mattering, since all I'm really describing is relationships, as opposed to "Look, I'm writing this because I thought it was really hot when my girlfriend did it, so now I'll use fictional characters to act out my life." Which sounds...really creepy.

I think there's a difference between straightforward fiction and porn.

Yeah. I guess. TBH, I don't particularly understand people - and this is most people, so I guess it's just a me-thing - who won't read slash or het or femslash or gen. Cause I pretty much like them all. I don't read *that* much het, but that's mostly because most of the pairings I like aren't het. But if I see ones I like or if they're by authors I like, I certainly read them.

But obviously most people are into just one or two. Whatever. *sigh*

What I really don't get is people who refuse to read gen, or anything that doesn't have lots of sexy bits in it - that, to me, is like putting a big "I read it for the porn" sign on your forehead. Which...I guess is legitimate and all, but just seems a bit strange to me.

I'll stop rambling now.

I think some people couldn't understand the format,

That...I can sort of get. If you don't like comics, you don't like comics. But at the same time, not really.

some people had a problem with the drawings not looking like the actors

I'll be the first to admit that sometimes the art is a bit crappy. But I don't expect it to look exactly like the actors. That's just kind of silly. I mean, it's like - you can do the Jo Chen style - which is gorgeous for covers, but as we saw in the little short she drew, doesn't really work for an action comic. It's pretty, and looks like the actors, but it wouldn't work all the time. Especially drawing for an entire series.

And besides, the characters aren't defined solely by the actors. They're their own characters, too.

some people didn't like the compressed nature of the format where you have 22 pages instead of 43 minutes.

Yeah...I mean, I sort of get that. The point is that S8 isn't ever going to be exactly like the show - it can't be. It's different, and not just the format.

People complained that actors can convey things with tone of voice and gesture that comics panels can't.

Eh. That's true, but I don't really see a loss in the comics from it.

People complained that the comics were monthly instead of weekly.

Yeah, okay. I get rather pissy about having to wait, since I can't get each issue, and basically have to wait half a year for each TPB. But that's my issue, and also - if he was putting out a weekly comic, it wouldn't be nearly as good as it is. That just makes sense.

Then there's the content.

Bleck. The whole point of the comics is that it's not going to be the show - of course Giant Dawn wouldn't happen on the show, but it would have looked ridiculous on the show. And contriving a way to keep Spike when that simply doesn't make any sense would just be dumb.

Also, what was wrong with Chosen?


Sorry I'm like arguing with myself - you've probably heard all this before. It's just a thing for me that I don't get.





Posted by: StephenT (stormwreath)
Posted at: 3rd July 2009 20:08 (UTC)

"Oh, Stephen's like really unusual for being a straight guy writing about lesbians, hmm, that's really cool" - and then I realized, "Wait, he's just being a regular straight guy. Oh."

:-)
It is something I've thought about quite a bit - in fact, when I wrote the second two 'Kisses' stories I was nervous I was turning myself into a cliché, and felt all sorts of relieved when I got my first feedback and it was positive rather than asking me "How dare you write this?". Which is cool. I've heard enough women ranting about "exploitational pseudo-lesbian porn for straight men" that I am glad - and grateful - that I've never encountered anything other than acceptance myself.

I would say, though, that very few straight guys *write* porn about anyone. Men tend to be more visual. :-)

And I do try to keep everybody in character and believable. I'm writing about Willow, or Buffy, or Faith, or Kennedy - that is, about people who happen to be lesbians (or bisexual, or bi-curious) and are having sex, rather than just a generic sex scene with flat stereotypes. Sure, I won't deny that there's also an element of "2 girlz = hot!" motivating me, but the characters do come first.


I'm writing this because I thought it was really hot when my girlfriend did it

You've got it - that's why the idea of writing het felt so creepy to me. (Also for the opposite reason - because if I included something that I've not done myself in a fic and got the details wrong, it would be even more embarrassing because it's something I ought to have known. I've got an excuse for getting femslash wrong...)

Though you might start thinking I'm creepy if I admit that I do like reading porn written by women from the woman's POV, exactly because I'm thinking "So that's what it feels like! I always wondered." :-)


putting a big "I read it for the porn" sign on your forehead

Well, some people read for pleasure, because they like the adventure or the romance or the escapism - and for that, ther's no reason to limit the gender of the couples. But yeah; not that it's often admitted openly as opposed to in coy allusions, but it does seem a lot of people look for stories that they can scroll down the screen using their left hand on the mouse, because their right hand is, um, otherwise engaged. And some people do both, depending on their mood. In the second situation, it seems entirely reasonable to restrict what you read to things that turn you on.


The whole point of the comics is that it's not going to be the show

Sure - but some people would say to that "But I liked the show!" For example, a lot of people had trouble with the idea of Buffy being out in the open leading an army of hundreds of Slayers, and would have preferred to go back to the old "One girl in all the world" format.


Also, what was wrong with Chosen?

Partly what I said above - the idea of the Slayer army. Lots of people hated the Potentials, and didn't like the idea of having lots of "baby Slayers" hanging around. Then there's the whole argument about whether Buffy and Willow were justified casting the spell, and whether it was a symbol of empowerment or the equivalent of a mass rape.

Posted by: Lily (lavastar)
Posted at: 3rd July 2009 21:03 (UTC)

I would say, though, that very few straight guys *write* porn about anyone. Men tend to be more visual. :-)

This is true. I could make a nasty comment about men being less talented/creative, but I'm really trying to turn the man-hate down.

And I do try to keep everybody in character and believable. I'm writing about Willow, or Buffy, or Faith, or Kennedy - that is, about people who happen to be lesbians (or bisexual, or bi-curious) and are having sex, rather than just a generic sex scene with flat stereotypes. Sure, I won't deny that there's also an element of "2 girlz = hot!" motivating me, but the characters do come first.

Oh, definitely. I don't think you're any different from the legions of straight women who write slash (except for being much rarer) - there's maybe an element of interest in something different from you, or the fact that you're attracted to both of the members of the couple, but really, you like what you like, and in the end it's about good stories and hot porn. Who doesn't like that? :P

You've got it - that's why the idea of writing het felt so creepy to me. (Also for the opposite reason - because if I included something that I've not done myself in a fic and got the details wrong, it would be even more embarrassing because it's something I ought to have known. I've got an excuse for getting femslash wrong...)

That's true. And also why I have so far avoided writing sex at all...

Though you might start thinking I'm creepy if I admit that I do like reading porn written by women from the woman's POV, exactly because I'm thinking "So that's what it feels like! I always wondered." :-)

Lulz, no, that makes sense.

Well, some people read for pleasure, because they like the adventure or the romance or the escapism - and for that, ther's no reason to limit the gender of the couples. But yeah; not that it's often admitted openly as opposed to in coy allusions, but it does seem a lot of people look for stories that they can scroll down the screen using their left hand on the mouse, because their right hand is, um, otherwise engaged. And some people do both, depending on their mood. In the second situation, it seems entirely reasonable to restrict what you read to things that turn you on.

Is it sad that my first thought was, "Whoa, I've never thought about it, but I always scroll with my right hand! Wait, that makes sense, I'm right-handed...is it possible for me to scroll left-handed? Let's try!" In case you're wondering, I can, but it feels very weird.

Anyways - yeah. I'm very much more into stories as stories, or to celebrate how much I love my fandoms, or sometimes for escapism.

Sure - but some people would say to that "But I liked the show!" For example, a lot of people had trouble with the idea of Buffy being out in the open leading an army of hundreds of Slayers, and would have preferred to go back to the old "One girl in all the world" format.

Yeah. I suppose I do understand that - if you like Buffy only doing one thing, and didn't particularly like the S7 and beyond approach, then you're not going to like S8. I just happen to be cool with both.

Partly what I said above - the idea of the Slayer army. Lots of people hated the Potentials, and didn't like the idea of having lots of "baby Slayers" hanging around. Then there's the whole argument about whether Buffy and Willow were justified casting the spell, and whether it was a symbol of empowerment or the equivalent of a mass rape.

I like the Potentials... :D

Although, the mass-rape question does intrigue me. I don't think that's really true, but it's a good point, and kind of makes sense...

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